Anticipation

It's been a week. I will apologize in advance if this comes off in a negative tone these are just some thoughts of mine.
So to the stress I have been feeling of late, I finally realize is due to my in ability to sit back and be patient. You see this is the very month that I am to find out if I will be accepted into the 'Farmers Market'. In a way I have been really positive in thinking that it will just work out and everything will go as planned ( Life in it self is not always a planned event I realize). So this morning after rammbling off at the mouth to my very understanding and very patient husand, I resolved that my frustation is a result of the unknown. Not knowing is sometimes the biggest struggle I face. I do know if I reflect back on my life things always seem to make sense as to why something happened the way it did- I live in hope that one day I could just foresee something. I maybe left to have to start planning what I will do if I don't get in. Their is always the opportunity to sell at the south end of the park with random sidestreet vendors and fighting for a spot every week at the wee hours of the morning. I do though have some other ways of selling. I guess I'm having a little boo hoo if I for sure get rejected. I am done rammbling and I'm going to go get some sun on me, it really is a beautiful day.